How To Murder Your Life A Memoir Reprint Cat Marnell by Cat Marnell 9781476752273, 1476752273 instant download after payment.

From Cat Marnell, “New York’s enfant terrible” (The Telegraph), a candid and darkly humorous memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.
At twenty-six, Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America — and that’s all most people knew about her. But she hid a secret life. She was a prescription drug addict. She was also a “doctor shopper” who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills; a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods; a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets; a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything — anything — to sleep. This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and yes, self-tanner. 

"How to Murder Your Life is far more than the sum of her collected columns ... Marnell treads a knife edge between glamorizing her own despair and rendering it with savage honesty. Several sections read like the drug-fueled interludes of The Goldfinch: queasy-making stuff far more effective than a 'scared straight' narrative. She propels the reader through what could seem like repetitiveness (drugs, binges, bad mistakes, sprawling parties) with the skill of a pulp novelist ... The exclamation points, the name-dropping, the absence of social media, the obsession with print culture and 'downtown kids' and Manhattan (the word 'Brooklyn' barely appears in the book) — How to Murder Your Life feels like an artifact from a previous New York, previous internet, previous calculus of celebrity. The book’s success stems from the wobbliness with which Marnell renders those worlds: Are they gross or sexy? Does she hate her body and run it toward destruction, or does she simply understand how female suffering has been rendered erotic?"  -  Anne Helen Peterson, The New York Times Books Review