I Love You So Much Its Killing Us Both A Novel Or An Annotated Mixtape 1st Edition Mariah Stovall by Mariah Stovall 9781593767600, 9781593767617, 1593767609, 1593767617 instant download after payment.

Set in the suburbs of Los Angeles & New York City, I Love You So Much It’s Killing Us Both is an immersive journey into the life & mind of Khaki Oliver, who’s perennially trying to disappear into something: a codependent friendship, an ill-advised boyfriend, the punk scene, or simply, the ether. These days it’s a meaningless job & a comfortingly empty apartment. Then, after a decade of estrangement, she receives a letter from her former best friend. Fiona’s throwing a party for her newly adopted daughter & wants Khaki to join the celebration. 

Khaki is equal parts terrified & tempted to reconnect. Their platonic love was confusing, all-consuming, & encouraged their worst impulses. While stalling her RSVP, Khaki starts crafting the perfect mixtape—revisiting memories of formative shows, failed romances, & the ups & downs of desire & denial—while weighing the risks & rewards of saying yes to Fiona again. 

One song at a time, from 1980s hardcore to 2010s emo, the shared & separate contours of each woman’s mind come into focus. Will listening to the same old songs on repeat doom Khaki to a lonely life of arrested development? Or will hindsight help her regain her sense of self & pave a healthy path for the future, with or without Fiona?

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Mariah Stovall is a literary agent & writer from New Jersey. She’s written fiction for the anthology Black Punk Now, & for Ninth Letter, Vol 1. Brooklyn, Hobart, the Minola Review, & Joyland. Stovall's nonfiction appeared in Literary Hub, The Los Angeles Review of Books, Full Stop, Hanif Abdurraqib’s 68to05, The Paris Review, & Poets & Writers. 24 Hour Revenge Therapy is her favorite Jawbreaker album.